December Sky VI

I haven't been here in ages. It almost feels new.

An ode to the ever beautiful December Sky. May it be glorious each year than before!

And then came December sky..
With everything that was and why
From the dark to the rising Sun,
Every step was remembered and then forgotten.

And then came December sky..
With it, dreams of a time never gone by
Beyond the colour of these seas I can see
A happy girl, always dancing with glee.

And then came December sky..
The journey is long, but short is the cry
From lit rainbows to dancing rivers
Hope is what answers them prayers.

My Boat. My World.

My boat. It's heavy.

Heavy from the rains of my face. 
Heavy from the waves crashing in my heart.

My boat. It's rocky.

Rocky from the tremor in my knees.
Rocky from the thoughts in my head. 

My boat. It sails.

It sails with the wind from my lungs.
It sails with the rustle in my hair.

My boat. It glides.

It glides with thoughts of her.
It glides with the curve of my lips. 

My boat. My boat. 

If I could, I would.
Turn up the Sail, Pull up the anchor.

It's time to paddle along.
It's time to scoop out the water. 

My boat. My world. 

Say a little prayer for us all.
For we are servants of the deep blue

I look back at the diminishing island,
Hopeful, of feeling the sand on the shore again.
Knowing, the longing of the warmth will always reign.

All I hear is the lull of water on wood.
All I feel is the weight of my decision.

Someday, I will see the cheeky grin again.
Someday, I will know, it's meant only for me.
And this time, I will be able to let it flower like it's meant to be. 

One after the other..

It's been a tumultuous year.

There has been the normal amount of change with varying degrees of impact.

There has been a surprising amount of continuity and evolution - In relationships, perspectives, purpose and emotions.

Looking ahead, there is a faint glimmer of potential highs and shaky ground that seem to go hand-in-hand. Resolutions were never time or duration specific but they came about in certain moments of clarity or moments of complete mayhem and chaos. It was accepted for it is a blowing wind.

There is much to be written and much of it requires a certain level of courage and candidness which probably isn't available at this point in time as it should be. A rant will have to do. For now. Again.

A strong belief exists that a foundation for something truly great has been laid and while that may have been a very difficult phase, the level of dedication, perseverance and belief required going forward is going to be unquestionable and unparalleled since now.

The support system has never wavered, thankfully. While some pillars and rocks may have moved along having played their path in this story, others have come along and supported this journey. Nobody's value or worth or effort can ever be truly encapsulated in words. It is invaluable and one that will never be forgotten irrespective of the state those bonds may currently reside in.

There is a new compass by the side. No questions asked, very few requests requested, no promises made or expected. It's perfect and just what is required. The fear of letting down, still persists. It'll never go away, which may not necessarily be a bad thing. Hope for the best still remains. Perseverance, belief and dedication has got to be the mantra with every stroke of cheek, every kiss and every gaze. It remains to be seen..

Don't be afraid beats the heart. Stay calm whispers every breath.

One step.. Let's deal with each step as it comes.