One after the other..

It's been a tumultuous year.

There has been the normal amount of change with varying degrees of impact.

There has been a surprising amount of continuity and evolution - In relationships, perspectives, purpose and emotions.

Looking ahead, there is a faint glimmer of potential highs and shaky ground that seem to go hand-in-hand. Resolutions were never time or duration specific but they came about in certain moments of clarity or moments of complete mayhem and chaos. It was accepted for it is a blowing wind.

There is much to be written and much of it requires a certain level of courage and candidness which probably isn't available at this point in time as it should be. A rant will have to do. For now. Again.

A strong belief exists that a foundation for something truly great has been laid and while that may have been a very difficult phase, the level of dedication, perseverance and belief required going forward is going to be unquestionable and unparalleled since now.

The support system has never wavered, thankfully. While some pillars and rocks may have moved along having played their path in this story, others have come along and supported this journey. Nobody's value or worth or effort can ever be truly encapsulated in words. It is invaluable and one that will never be forgotten irrespective of the state those bonds may currently reside in.

There is a new compass by the side. No questions asked, very few requests requested, no promises made or expected. It's perfect and just what is required. The fear of letting down, still persists. It'll never go away, which may not necessarily be a bad thing. Hope for the best still remains. Perseverance, belief and dedication has got to be the mantra with every stroke of cheek, every kiss and every gaze. It remains to be seen..

Don't be afraid beats the heart. Stay calm whispers every breath.

One step.. Let's deal with each step as it comes.

Trust.

*slip.. sliiiiiiiiide.. KER-RASH*

That damn floor.!!

Waitaminit.

That Floor, it had never done this before. Never, had it ever done this before. Never had she ever had to think twice over its reliability, its assuring sturdy grip on her delicate naked soles. Never.

Never. Ever. Ever. Never.

So, why now. Why would it not grip her sturdy pores and catch her as she lost her footing.? Why would her most trusted floor do this. She had stood by it in times of trouble and renovation and is this the way it pays her back.? Not so. Never so. Not done by any manner of speaking.

Could she write this as a one-off.? Should she.? How could she.? Prudence had told her this is what you do when you're bitten once. Would she want to take the risk of trusting the damn floor and break a part of her next time round.? She would think not. 

Stupid floor. It had been her favorite and now, nothing but threads of doubt and bubbles of dread. Serves it right though, she felt. It will never have the luxury of feeling my naked skin again nor will it have my unwavering support as before. 

This is what happens to those that let the ones that trust them the most fall. Shame on you floor. Shame. Even one with such high esteem and confidence must be made to rue its failure.

No. Now she will advice all her friends, aides, companions, acquaintances, strangers of how ordinary and un-special this floor was. 

And all the floor could do in this time was hope for time. It had slipped in its concentration and it had let her fall. It was sorry but those words don't count for much in this time of ease and impersonal barriers. It's only hope now was to ensure it never let its concentration fail and never drop anyone. It could be possible but it would take time. 

Lots of time..