Wednesday, October 8, 2008

Ramblings of a certain addicted Couch-Potato...

41 days; 6 fractured bones, 1 fractured tooth, 3 chipped teeth, 10 staples in the head, injuries to the lungs and other numerous cuts, scrapes and bruises supplemented with countless hours of mindless telly watching, munching and other inanities later I find myself counting the days till i get back to my tribe and my grazing grounds albeit however short the 'home-coming' might last...

In these days of relative solitude, and overbearing 'support' from my ever loving parents; things tend to get a little too cluastrophobic and yet I tend to ramble. This is my gift from the desert beyond - my ramblings, my cantering thoughts, me, myself & idum..

Moving along, I hate this completely obnoxious barrage of news channels; I'm sure by now everybody has heard of the party bust in Bombay which resulted in the arrest of 230 odd kids with drug related offence. What I find especially distasteful is the manner in which these C-grade journalists go about projecting it like a typical B-grade hindi movie; One channel even ripped off certain scenes from this movie - 'Page 3' and not wanting to even tread over the terribly amatureish voice over; How Lame and truly offensive..! Whatever happened to actual journalism and it bothers me that unlike other kids who wanted to get in the army or become a fireman/policeman; I wanted to be a journalist... such a shame. (Didn't help that my mum was watching it and is completely horrified at where 'our' youth is heading to).

I love music. I love Manchester United. I love my mates. Period.

I do not like rules. I do not like Authority. I do not like politicans.

I also noticed this fascination certain people have for songs, books, soaps and movies that have a sad, meloncholic and lonesome feel to it.. ironic, since they derive joy or comfort from it. I for one am one of these people and in my time have come across certain people who do too, and not all of us are lonely, depressed, loony or any of that sort. We are, well most of us are pretty normal (depending on your definition of normal).

Is it just me or is the only reason to watch any rap/hip-hop video; to ogle at the various incredibly hot women on screen. I mean, since when did the powers that be decide that MUSIC alone was just not enough?!?!

Just the other day, i was watching this show 'According to Jim' which arguably was the funniest episode I had seen in a long time. This particular episode had Jim and his Brother in law - Andy go on a drunken bachlorette party for Andy's sister - Dana (which would be Jim's sister in law; stay with me you slower ones - I have a point here) and what's more their drunken antics were not only quite realistic but also pretty darn funny; infact it was easily their funniest episode - the drunken binges; the appearance of various receipts - and the subsequent re-enactment; loud crappy 'singing'; 'dancing' anywhere n everywhere; statements you cannot live without uttering every other minute et al (All you trippers, know where I'm heading with this; the rest of you.. well life isn't fair, deal with it). The point here is that ...*waaaait for it*..... drunken people are frikkin hilarious!! (well 7 out of 10 are. the other 3 consist of the violent, black-out and miscellaneous and not in any order).

I completely agree that there's nothing in this world thats better at lifting spirits than shopping for onesels; be it a momentory crisis, a failing relationship or yet another argument with your loved ones. The feeling of owning something new is just awesome and so very uplifting. Such a shame that this feeling needs to be constantly fed but what the hell, we need all the help we can get.

I think I'm losing hair. Yikes!
Technology scares me.
I wish I had a Dog; I could do with some company right about now.

Time to take a shower....

Thursday, September 4, 2008

Today,I

One day Compromise met me and asked me "Who do you think I am"? I did not know the answer until I met Convince. Convince told me, " You build a thought. You believe in it. You build me. You change your thought.A situation makes you do it and I become Compromise after you allow me to do so". Today I compromise on convincing myself..


Today I’m held in between a Yesterday and tomorrow.
Not knowing where my now is.
A sonnet of thoughts flutter in my distant memory,
Of better times, of then, of a now.
Of a time when I could scream louder than I thought I could.
A time, when the lack of wings never stopped a journey to a haven.

Today I’m held in between a truth and the reality.
A bygone time had shown a life which I knew as the truth.
It ceases to exist now, as I wonder why.
Maybe I failed to read the vision of the growing time,
Maybe time grew on me before I could read.
But my sight today is dazed, which is a reality.

Today I’m held in between music and sound.
A chapter of notes that once rhymed with my thoughts,
Seem to have formed crooked lines on paper.
A paper that has found a place in the book of my life,
Against my will and belief.
A new sound I search for, one that will rhyme with today.

Today I’m held in between a present and a gift.
The present is my today, which is empty.
A hope and a dream are the gifts of my birth.
I wish to embrace the present as much as I need my today.
But my true gift will be a need, a need that will define.
Define an existence that has been caught by some others.

But I promise to never let it be hunted.
As I look beyond now,
Staying in my today,
And dreaming the dream,
That taught me to live,
That showed me my now.
And realize the gift of the ‘is’,
And not the ‘will be’.